thinking about Jack...

It was 2 years ago that Dave and I were on our "babymoon" in Miami and I was 20 weeks pregnant with Jack. I remember feeling nervous because I wasn't feeling him move as much. Then I started feeling like I was leaking fluid. I ignored this thinking it was just normal pregnancy stuff. I finally called when I was 22 weeks and got an appointment. I will never forget this day...My OB did a pelvic exam and then whispered to the nurse who left the room. I asked if everything was okay and he told me to get dressed, call my husband to come in immediately, and meet him in his office. Dave got there and Dr. Herd told us that I was dilated 3 cm and the membranes were bulging out. His nurse came in with a wheelchair and whisked me away to the hospital where I was admitted and given an emergency cerclage. My water broke 2 days later and Jack was born at 24 weeks. He was only 1 lb 10 oz. Jack struggled to survive for 5 months overcoming MRSA, NEC, liver and kidney failures. It was only ay 5 months old did they do a MRI of his brain that the doctors discovered Jack was missing his cerebellum--a part of the brain you cannot survive without out. We decided to let him go. There is not one single day that goes by that I don't think of him. Being pregnant again makes me miss him more! Jen